"Frieda's father had told her most people had secret lives, but usually they were secrets no one wanted to know"

i feel like there's a lot going on and at the same time nothing at all.

i'm really excited because i went to the bookstore last week and got 2 new books. but it was actually a Jewish bookstore in a heavily Jewish area. the kind that closes for shabbat and you see the men in black suits and long beards walking to the synagogue. my friend izzy was in the neighborhood so he walked over and help me choose Living a Jewish Life and a book for learning Hebrew, The First Hebrew Primer. i also got invited by the family i work with to celebrate Purim with them so thats really exciting. i've been on a baking spree so maybe i'll try and make some hamentashen. also I have been talking to a really nice orthodox lady via facebook and am going to call her this week and maybe do a shabbat with her soon. maybe this week i will attempt to make a challah. i am pretty proud of myself for doing this. i also emailed the chabad rabbi and will be calling him next week after Purim. I feel like this is the right path for me and am very excited to finally be more active about it. oh, i also checked out from the library "Becoming a Jew" and "To Pray as a Jew" and "The Living Torah"

i have a few papers due and some quizzes so i need to keep on keeping on with school. i get to register for summer school on monday so that's exciting. i hope they let me take 5 classes. or 6 even. i am trying hard but i know i can put forth more effort. spring break isn't until the last week of march so i have some time.

my best fridays night have been spent with bianca. i don't care that we live thousands of miles apart. gchats. youtube. music. target. the most fun i have is conversations with her and random adventures. love you b!! feel better!! everyone wish her good wishes cause shes sick :(

in other news. i will update and pass out awards tomorrow and whatnot.

it doesn't stab my heart when i think about him. i think about him less often. i don't know if i'm happy or sad.

Sometimes it still hurts. You know how it is, man. It's like, you wake up every day and it hurts a little bit less, and then you wake up one day and it doesn't hurt at all. And the funny thing is, is that, this is kinda wierd, but it's like, it's like you almost miss that pain.
Swingers



sigh.