Sunday, March 1, 2009

"I am so clever that sometimes I don't understand a single word of what I am saying."

i am feeling a little bit overwhelmed. when it doubt, i turn to my mom. she is encouraging and lovely and she keeps me motivated. she is definitely where i get my positivity from. i read that book The Ten Best Days of my Life- Adena Halpern and it obviously got me thinking about the ten best days of my life. and then thinking about that got me thinking about my mom. i definitely remember one of the best 10 days of my life.

here we go.

so i was 17 and a junior at an all girls high school. due to public school friends i thankfully knew boys. i was even lucky enough to have a steady bf that a lot of girls envied. he was a great bf but after a few months i learned he could really be a jerk. not the kind of jerk that screams or yells but the even worse kind. the one that gives you the silent treatment. that to me completely sucks. seriously, i would much rather have someone yell and be pissed then ignore me.

so anyways i found out via email he was cheating on me with some skank who wore a purple thong. seriously wtf? some 15 hoochie went after him and he let her. so after all this i was feeling like shit. i talked to my mom and she knew i was feeling awful. i was having a horrible time of it. crying, couldn't eat or sleep awful time of it.

what's a mom to do?

she let me take the day off and she did too. she ordered us chinese and we cuddled and watch lifetime movies. she knew i was feeling pretty useless and unwanted and she made me feel important. she made me feel loved. we seriously just watched lifetime movies and hung out but i knew how much my mom loved me and no matter what she would always take care of me. and she has. so that day makes one of the best of my life. at the time i was so sad because of the jerk bf but my mom and her love have made it into a beautiful memory.

what is one of your best days?

[oh. i made yummy cookies this week. spent too much money. decided the gym is a must. handed over all my money to my mom to budget me like i'm 12. got a 95% on a paper. bought a ton of books supercheap from the library for sale section. hung out with roomie. had the best 3 hours convo on friday morning with bianca. got a book to learn hebrew and started. dl some duffy. started to cross items off my to do list. found out i have a bunch more. keep wanting to adopt another dog. missed you. when don't i?]

"I would like to be the air that inhabits you for a moment only. I would like to be that unnoticed and that necessary."


Shannon said...

this post seriously made me want to cry ... that is so sweet, and it reminds me so much of my mom.

& your week sounds pretty great :)

goodgirlgoneblog said...

Wow, that is so adorable. Your mom sounds great. It always makes me happy to hear that other people have good relationships with their mothers :)

Kylie said...

Aren't moms the best friends in the whole world!! They've been there, done that and survived to help us through it all!
Have a great week!!

AP said...

this is so very lovely!

Mandy said...

This post is so sweet. It made me teary too thinking of some of my best days.

Amanda said...

I wish I could hand over all my money to my parents and budget me. God knows I try all the time but they tell me I'm an adult and need to learn how to do it on my own. Sigh. So, so jealous.

Ben said...

I wouldn't be anywhere without my awesome parents. Those two deserve medals.

Carissa said...

your mom sounds fabulous. chinese and lifetime movies? that's my kind of day :) isn't it great how the love and care of one person can just melt all the sadness away? my mom and i don't always have the best relationship, it has gotten better since i moved out, but i know i can always count on her. and she loves chinese and sappy movies too :)

Andy said...

Moms are awesome.

PS to make things better, you've won an award! ;)