Thursday, April 23, 2009

you sure don't deserve me at my best.

you know that feeling when you have been traveling and you're in the car on the way to the hotel/place you're staying and you start getting ansty and just want to get there? then you get there and you throw your bags down and throw yourself on the bed and sigh?

that's all i wanted tonight. i had babysat late last night unexpectedly and tonight and i am tired. so tired i have forgettoen my backpack at school (thank goodness for friends) and have gotten off on the wrong elevator floor and fallen asleep in many places while standing up.

i don't mind being busy because i work well structured. its hard for me to admit but i need it. i need to have a sort of set schedule to know where my time is going. too much free time makes me lazy.

you know what i love? candles lighting my apartment. just candles. a clean apartment with candles and a nice smell and cuddling with bella. having to clean all the cat hair out has not been fun, i actually have to have a maid come over and the sofas have to be cleaned. i hate the fact that i have not outgrown my allergies because as soon as i touch the hair, its sniffles mcgee. very sexy i assure you. but the apartment is basically quite clean and quiet and cozy.

i honestly am not sure about having another roommate. i have never really gotten the chance to enjoy living alone. if jenn hadnt come along i would never have been motivated to make the apartment feel cozy but when she came, it defintiely became a home and not just a place to sleep. so i went from bf to bf and family and whatnot and now is the first time i am happy living alone. i have a lot of offers for people who want to live with me but...i dont know. i love the quiet. so now the place is cozy and almost deocrated the way i want and i like it.

i work. i go to school. i have good days. i have bad days. i smile.

oh. have i mention i am ridiculously horny? seriously i don't know whats up but i am eyeing up everyone. i am telling people they have nice teeth (actually thats a pretty/cute funny story but yeah). i miss tal but what else is new? i guess i am just not willing to find some random dude and my fav dial a dicks are not my favorite anymore.

i am going to crawl under the covers with bella and watch the office.


Mandy said...

Spending time alone does wonders for the soul.

Carissa said...

"too much free time makes me lazy"

I 100 percent agree. that is totally how I am!

sometimes I wish I lived on my own (instead of my bf, shh don't tell! ha) but most of the time I wish I lived with my best girl friend again. I loved college and living with girls and doing girly things. I miss that. before I lived with my bf I lived with my bestie (and two guys, a couple). we had totally different schedules and didn't get to hang out as much as we thought we would living together, but it was still great when we did get to have those girls nights. and it was nice being able to just go to her room and talk... ah, I'm getting misty-eyed now!

anyway, I wanted to let you know I gave you a blog award on my blog today. just want to say I love your blog!

happy weekend!

Andy said...

Dude, if I lived in Chicago, I'd be already living in your apartment. And I wouldn't even have asked you.

Aritza, Goddess of .. said...

Sounds like your place is cozy and you're finally enjoying it, even by yourself.
It's really important to know how to enjoy being alone because you never know when people are gonna leave.

Like you and Carissa, I'm lazy when I have too much free time .. altough I like being lazy, hehe !