you know that feeling when you have been traveling and you're in the car on the way to the hotel/place you're staying and you start getting ansty and just want to get there? then you get there and you throw your bags down and throw yourself on the bed and sigh?
that's all i wanted tonight. i had babysat late last night unexpectedly and tonight and i am tired. so tired i have forgettoen my backpack at school (thank goodness for friends) and have gotten off on the wrong elevator floor and fallen asleep in many places while standing up.
i don't mind being busy because i work well structured. its hard for me to admit but i need it. i need to have a sort of set schedule to know where my time is going. too much free time makes me lazy.
you know what i love? candles lighting my apartment. just candles. a clean apartment with candles and a nice smell and cuddling with bella. having to clean all the cat hair out has not been fun, i actually have to have a maid come over and the sofas have to be cleaned. i hate the fact that i have not outgrown my allergies because as soon as i touch the hair, its sniffles mcgee. very sexy i assure you. but the apartment is basically quite clean and quiet and cozy.
i honestly am not sure about having another roommate. i have never really gotten the chance to enjoy living alone. if jenn hadnt come along i would never have been motivated to make the apartment feel cozy but when she came, it defintiely became a home and not just a place to sleep. so i went from bf to bf and family and whatnot and now is the first time i am happy living alone. i have a lot of offers for people who want to live with me but...i dont know. i love the quiet. so now the place is cozy and almost deocrated the way i want and i like it.
i work. i go to school. i have good days. i have bad days. i smile.
oh. have i mention i am ridiculously horny? seriously i don't know whats up but i am eyeing up everyone. i am telling people they have nice teeth (actually thats a pretty/cute funny story but yeah). i miss tal but what else is new? i guess i am just not willing to find some random dude and my fav dial a dicks are not my favorite anymore.
i am going to crawl under the covers with bella and watch the office.