Sunday, September 6, 2009

jesse, i wont cut fresh flowers for you

"I have a history of making decisions very quickly about men. I have always fallen in love fast and without measuring risks. I have a tendency not only to see the best in everyone, but to assume that everyone is emotionally capable of reaching his highest potential. I have fallen in love more times than I care to count with the highest potential of a man, rather than with the man himself, and I have hung on to the relationship for a long time (sometimes far too long) waiting for the man to ascend to his own greatness. Many times in romance I have been a victim of my own optimism."
Elizabeth Gilbert
(Eat, Pray, Love: One Woman's Search for Everything Across Italy, India and Indonesia)
(also see a great post from carissa about the book)

That quote basically sums up my past relationships. It's starting to be fall which makes me want to cuddle and light fires and drink wine and even go camping! While I am okay being single and actually pretty happy about it, I can't say that there aren't times when I don't miss having someone to spend some special moments with. I was explaining to someone the other day, I think to my mom maybe, about what I miss. I miss the feeling at the end of the day when it's been a long day and you climb into the cool sheets of your bed and there's the person you love most laying there, warm and ready to embrace you and nothing needs to be said. I know I am not where I need to be and that I dont even have the time for that special someone but I can still occasionally miss it. Either way, I have a small crush on someone at school which is enjoyable [and by enjoyable i mean makes me nervous and giddy].

I have been having the absolute best time with Bianca being home. We have thrifted, had food thats horrible for us but delicious, seen The Ugly Truth, went thrifting, went to a party and saw high school friends, had iHop at 2 am, talked in parking lots, had free pie, laughed til we cried [i know the ferris wheel], and just had the best time. This week I get to learn how to do her bustle, get her a garter, and buy a bra for the bridesmaid dress. I've said it before and I'll say it again but I am so lucky and blessed to have her as a bestie. I can't wait to see her get married in less that 3 weeks!!!!

I had a wonderful day with my family. My mom and I went to the store where I tanned and she shopped and met up with me. My stepdad picked up my Grandma so she could sleep over and spend Labor Day with us. We went to Petsmart, got coffee, and went on a walk in the forest preserve with Bella. Then my Mom made us dinner and we watched home movies so my Grandma could see videos of my Grandpa that passed away about 5 years ago. I love my family and it feels really good to spend time and just talk.

Oh on the tanning front, I have gone the last 3 days and will be going for the next 4 and then keep going every few days to keep up my tan and also look good for the wedding. I really just look better with color. I might do a tan cocktail or spray and tan on mondays and tuesdays. Not sure yet but enjoying the extra color.

I have a bar mitzvah tomorrow for the oldest boy I babysit.

I'm moving back into my own apartment in a few weeks. I will be glad to have a much shorter drive but I so don't want to leave. I love seeing my mom everyday and I love Antioch and the scenery and open skies and land. If it wasn't for me being scared to drive this during winter I would stay. It is nice to live on your own though. After my last experience, I realized that I only want to live with family or someone I am in a relationship with. I am thinking about having a Halloween costume party in my new place but we shall see.

Oh, I have another new lay out.

Oh oh! Thanks so much to Aritza for the blog award!

Here’s how this one works: USE ONLY ONE WORD! It’s not as easy as you might think. Copy and change the answers to suit you and pass it on. It’s really hard to use only one-word answers.
1. Where is your cell phone? next to me on the desk
2. Your hair? brown with highlights
3. Your mother? amazing
4. Your father? which one?
5. Your favorite food? chinese
6. Your dream last night? dont remember
7. Your favorite drink? water/rum&diet
8. Your dream/goal? love
9. What room are you in? study
10. Your hobby? reading
11. Your fear? heights
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? married/teaching/israel/san fran
13. Where were you last night? all over the city with bianca
14. Something that you aren’t? quiet
15. Muffins? plain bran
16. Wish list item?
love when its time
17. Where did you grow up? suburbs
18. Last thing you did? this blog
19. What are you wearing? pj pants, slippers, john lennon tee
20. Your TV? sunday
21. Your pets? bella!
22. Friends? i have the best
23. Your life? happy
24. Your mood? tired/wistful
25. Missing someone? no
26. Vehicle? honda civic coupe
27. Something you’re not wearing? a bra
28. Your favorite store? the thrift store
29. Your favorite color? pink
30. When was the last time you laughed? an hour ago
31. Last time you cried? yesterday, from laughing
32. Your best friend? bianca!
33. One place that I go to over and over? the library
34. One person who emails me regularly? my mom
35. Favorite place to eat? my grandmas
Thank you so much aritza for this!! I guess I get to give it to someone and I most def choose Miss Bianca from Isn't She Pretty in Pink, Mandy from Just a Small Town Girl, and Carissa from The Lovely Dove! Blogs I never 'mark as read'. Blogs that have 3 strong, sweet, smart, and intelligent woman who share thri lives, thoughts, and always make me laugh and smile!!

Now for the lolz...

i want to chomp into your throat lol


Mandy said...

Thanks for the blog love dear! Sounds like you have had a great few weeks and will be having an other great few weeks. Ahh, I love so much fun! I hear you on looking better with color. I am about ready to start hitting the tanning bed again.

Carissa said...

oh my goodness you are just to sweet. thank you!

that quote from Eat Pray Love also perfectly sums up my relationships with men. I really do see the best in everyone and give my love a little too easily, even when they don't deserve it. "a victim of my own optimism" ? yeah, that's me.

your adventures with Bianca sound like so much fun! you are making me miss my bestie! she doesn't live that far from me, but she is always sooo busy and we kind of have different schedules. but I think I will give her a ring today... it is labor day after all!

and just so you know, I think you are strong, sweet, smart and intelligent too! I love your blog and get excited every time I see a new post. I have said it before, but I love your honesty and humor!

oh, and I adore your new layout! I loved the last one, but this one is really cute too :)

Andy said...

Loving the new layout! :)

Oh, and that quote? Amazing. Maybe not FULLY true for me, but it's correct in some aspects!

Kirsty said...

This just sounds exactly like me. I fall in love in a minute. It certainly makes life dramatic and interesting.