baby, are we doing alright

so while talking to the bff last night we realized there are SO many shows they need to bring back. while there are a ton of new shows out there i love and watch and dvr and all that jazz, there are some shows that are in need of a come back.

• mtv's FANatic-because who wouldn't want to see some homolicious adorable 15yr old being gaga's biggest fan dressed like her? i know i would.
• vh1's rock n roll jeopardy. seriously mark mcgrath and cece deville owned that game. plus how fun would it be to watch celebrities do that. a show about thing i actually know the answers too. [well i actually kick a lot of regular jeopardy ass but still]
• mtv's undressed-so many people were on that show, so many random stuff was going on, and it was like skinimax for teens. the plots were riciulous but i loved it and didn't have to watch consistently to get it.
• hermans head-seriously what a funny show and they could make it really awesome now with  new technology and what not. 
• daria- because who didn't have a crush on trent? 

 and i somehow published this unfinished? ok?

i spent today watching lifetime movies. the plumber came and my dog was lazy and i wish i had an elliptical in my living room. i also rediscovered my love for suffrajett, a great band.


have you ever read a book and wanted to be in the book in a realistic way and not in the "lets get rid of bella and get with edward cullen ourselves and be a kick ass vamp and not a whiny baby" kind of way? i own the book "love the one you're with" and the character has such a good life. it makes me want to live in atlanta the way "smart women" makes me want to live in boulder and own a hot tub.


okay seriously why am i not in bed?

you're singing to me baby in my head right now

So bella got more things today because she is a spoiled puppy but I did buy a basket to put all her toys in which I'm sure will last all of 5 minutes. At least it will be easier to clean up. I am making myself going to bed at midnight so I'll be up by 7:30 and ready for school tomorrow. I have Logic II, Modern Philosophy, and Women Men and Social Change. Should be a good day as the first 2 classes are with a fav teacher and a bunch of good friends.

Stayed on track with food today. Did have the mini meatballs from Friday with some rice which wasn't good, the white rice but I measured it and did count it and was still in my calorie range so that's good. Tomorrow I'm finishing up signing up for classes to do yoga, pilates, and cardio at school.

I am pretty sure my neighbor thinks I'm a 14 year old girl with all the Hannah Montana music I have going on repeat for days. Well some Newsies/Fame/Glee soundtracks have been on too...

Okay so B and I decided that I will bring some Dunkin Donut munchkins to my first class tomorrow with a fav teach/friends. Checklist for school tomorrow...

class schedule/rooms? check.
notebook/pens? check.
planner? check.
parking sticker? check (well we don't need it for 2 weeks and you get them at school)
printed things? not yet but I'll do at school where it's included in the tuition
excitement? check!

Also, Big Love tonight? Totally has me re-excited for the series. I seriously heart HBO and all it's good shows and the new ones that will air this year. Can't wait for more True Blood even though I wish the Eric/Sookie storyline was more true to the books.

I showered/lotioned/face washed/brush teethed/turned all lights off so bed time!! Have a great week and Monday everyone. Even if it is a Monday, it's such a great reason to sing along to 'Manic Monday'.

don't give me that face, when you know i'm really down for the chase

So, after watching Iron Chef America where the secret ingredient was anything from the White House vegetable garden, I feel inspired.  I'm thinking about doing some research and heading to the gardening store (nursery?) and the dollar tree to start my own little garden. Fresh things taste good, its inexpensive, and it seems like something fun. I'm definitely adding this to my 101 in 1001. My Grandma has an absolutely amazing garden and the fruits and veggies from there are phenomenal. I have a big ledge in my kitchen window that would be perfect for it. Eating fresh is a good part of living healthy and that seems pretty fitting with the new routine I'm trying to take.

Speaking of being healthy, this week has been good and bad. Yes, I totally had Chinese food with my Dad and then went to Bakers Square with my bff and her husband where we had BLT's and a slice of pumpkin pie with ice cream. So yummy but not good for calories. I am going to take a positive out of the experience because even though I really didn't want to, I still logged everything and saw the calories. Okay so it wasn't as horrible as I thought but it wasn't great obviously. Last night I had a Shabbat dinner with friends and I honestly didn't even know how to start counting the calories. We had tilapia, chicken, meat bourekas, mini meat balls, egg salad, regular salad in a lemon juice and oil dressing, yum!), rice, challah, hummus, and a simple chocolate cake. A little wine and it was a wonderful meal. Today I ate considerable better thanks to my mom.

During the week I have a pretty busy schedule which can led to fast food, school snacks, and vending machines. Or it just leaves me ravenous and then I eat snacks with the kids I babysit and while delicious, a lot of them are extremely bad to eat (mac 'c cheese or bagels with cheese melted on top and mayonnaise) . Luckily I have the worlds best mom so she helps me out with eating healthy. She makes a bunch of the food on weekend that can last me 2 weeks or so. She makes the meals for me to eat everyday which are good, filling, and extremely healthy and balanced. Now, I can eat the same thing everyday so for me this is an ideal situation. She makes me a cup of brown rice, 1/2 cup of green peppers, and 1/2 a grilled boneless/skinless chicken breast, sometimes she uses 1/2 a hamburger for variety. It has fiber, protein, a good carb, and is portioned and healthy. I add in 2 tbsp of ranch (sometimes with hot sauce) or 4tbsp of fat free Italian dressing for taste. I have been known to add ketchup in a pinch or soy sauce. The meals are so good, I can microwave them in 2 minutes, and its a huge help to my budget. I snack on Zone bars during the day when I can't grab a meal. Zone bars are my absolute favorite nutritional bar. They taste yummy, have only 190 calories, 12g protien, 6g fat and 22g of carbs. They are good when I can't grab lunch because they fill me up for a few hours and seriously, are REALLY good. I have turned friends and even a teacher on to them. Costco is a great place to get them for a great price too.

I know that me talking about food isn't that exciting but it's good for me to know what I'm eating, why, and I think it's fun to share healthy things. I loved Steph's new blog, Luxe Skinny and really want to try the recipe she posted. I think it's awesome that other bloggers are looking to get healthy.  It is always easier with support which is a big reason why weight watchers work, the support. Well right now I don't have the time/money/I never got into WW but I love having the support of family and friends and bloggers! My first goal right now it to lose about 35lbs but the ultimate goal is to lose about 90lbs.

Steph also linked to this amazing blog, 344 Pounds where this guy named Tyler went from 344lbs to 216 so far and how he did it. He is amazing, inspirational, not to mention cute lol Really though, what an incredible journey that completely motivates and inspires me.

In other news, school starts Monday. I am actually really excited and actually a bit sad since it's my last semester and I will extremely miss the teachers there. My friends I can always see but I love being in the Philosophy department and all the fun we've had. This semester I want all A's so I am willing to work hard and meet my goals. On the fun side, there is a bar near my house and school that does Wednesday night pub trivia and some friends and I are going to start going. Plus a few of my friends and I share 2 or 3 classes so it's going to be a great last semester before I graduate.

Tomorrow is school supply shopping! I have always loved getting new notebooks and pens and whatnot so it's an exciting Target trip for me. I need to get one of those Pledge pet hair things to clean my sofas after Bella. I also need to pick up some more Weight Watcher bagels and some new candles.

Today has been an day of catching up on General Hospital, watching some Law and Order: SVU, cleaning up the apartment, and cuddling with Bella. If you're not my fb friend then you missed how adorable she looks in her winter outfit so here you go...find me a cuter winter dog.

let's do this

i started my 101 in 101 and it should be up soon which i'm excited about. i LOVE checking things off a list, so that should be fun to do. i have a dry erase board which keeps me organized and i get such satisfaction when i cross a line through something. it's the little things in life that make me happy. although this week i feel rather lazy since my sleep schedule is a hot mess. i actually miss school. its full or learning and friends and schedules and i actually have really enjoyed it this year.

i am really excited to report that i have lost 5 lbs this week. i think it has to do with tracking what i'm eating which in turn makes me more accountable. it's also really easy to do because it works with an iphone app and so what i update on my computer goes to the app and vice versa. i am trying to eat better this week but i am also eating regular because it's good to see what  i'm eating and how many calories and stuff i eat daily. i can find my problem areas and see what i can keep and what needs to get the hell out of my food. this means you oreos! what i know i love but need to be more careful about is ranch dressing.

i am obsessed with ranch dressing. have you eaten ranch and a baked potato? heavenly! ranch with chicken wings? steak. chicken in general. vegetables. bread. i love it with everything but 2 tablespoons of it is what i should be eating so i've started measuring which helps.

i am looking forward to next week and starting to use the school gym and try a spinning class. i just want to achieve my goals. i know it sounds bad to say but when i am at least back to my lower weight i feel better and look even better (what, i can be conceited, i have a hella cute face and great hair. i would just like to see my shape face and cute chin, not whats going on right now) anyway i want to feel better and i think that, well look, i am not attracted to a certain body type on a guy and so the same goes for guys and while i've never had a problem dating, i do that it narrows my options, being less fit. as a guy i know said, he wanted his mom skinnier/healthier so she could chase his future grandkids around.

i need to get healthy for my future kids and future self. now that my insane schedule is back to normal, i am ready to go.

new layout, new name, new goals

All around me people are getting engaged and married. The fact is, I'm 26 and its the seemingly "right" time to do it for most of my friends. I am completely happy for them but, obviously, envious as well. I wouldn't say jealous exactly because while I wish it was me in a way, I know the point I am at in my life is not quite there. I have things to do before I am ready for marriage, no matter how much I may feel ready. What I have realized in the last 2 years is that I need to make it happen for myself. Which I am cool with and excited for and why I have decided to do a achieve my goals and go for my dreams. Here we go!

School. This is done really because I am in my last semester and will be graduating in May. Either a year off til Grad School or a Masters in Israel, not sure yet. Either way I want to eventually get a phd and teach ethics to children.

Independence. Well. I live by myself, work hard, and can live alone without relying on takeout food. I am a good cook, clean, and I can live alone happily with Bella.

Health. This is the big one. While I am not unhealthy and don't eat horrible, I need to lose weight. A bad breakup or 3 has left me heavier then I'd like although I do like how I look. So eating right, tracking ym food intake, and using my school gym with all its yoga, pilates, and spinning classes plus my bally's membership will help.  Using Spark People has helped me lose 4 lbs this week and it's free. Win win.


Love. This will happen but I am not looking and I am not settling. I don't need to have sex with strangers or repeats with guys that weren't that exciting. A glass of wine and some How I met Your Mother with Marshall, Ted, and Barney will be just fine thank you. As for the crush at school, I am a definitely just a friend to him. Ya win some, ya lose some.

Friends. No toxic people in my life. Thank goodness the only one who seemed to be creeping in is gone and the past mistakes I am keeping an eye on. Truthfully I am just making more and more new friends at school, well solidifying friendships and I look forward to an amazing semester with them!

So my goals are clear and I will be using this blog to keep track of them and motivate myself. I made a new header and I did a new layout so check it out! I will be starting one of those 'things to go lists soon. Not sure if it will be a 101 in 1001 or a 30 by 30 list but it should be fun.

Happiness really is a journey. I always love what Charlotte says in the "Sex and the City" movie when asked if she's happy. "Not all day everyday...but everyday". That's me. I always feel so blessed I'm an optimist, I don't spend all day bitching and twitter and fb'ing negative things. Honestly some people post every complaint I feel like removing them as my friend. Bad days happen to us all but the more we spread the negative, the harder it is to be positive.

Alright since it's 2:40am it's time to get bella in bed and hopefully me too.